i never thought i'd say this.

i remember at the start of sec3, when i first took a look at the class list, the first thought that came to me was "oh gosh, someone help. im stuck in a class full of china scholars."

and well, that thought stuck with me through obs, when i WASNT with the rest of my class save a few china scholars. i remember clearly being very annoyed with them and all.

but i guess what i want to say now is, i love them. i love them so much, and i dont think i'll ever forget them. im glad i belong to the back half of the class where the rest of them are. if not, i would never have had the chance to sit with them during paper checking.

its so ironic eh? when it first started out, i disliked them because of grades. yet its the same thing that brought us closer together. i'll never forget the times where we all squeezed each other's hands out of nervousness, and the really awkward attempts to communicate in chinese/ english. im really appreciative of them. sure our grades are worlds apart, but what we feel whilst waiting to receive them, the heartbreak, disappointment, tears, joy, happiness- are all the same.

i regret not opening up to them earlier, but only doing so during THIS eoy period. ive missed out on so many chances simply because i refused to accept them. guess thats something i should note.

reading all their messages, (even though they were really really short because of the limited space on the autograph page), i felt all these again. perhaps more strongly then ever. and whereas sometimes i felt they were just so different, they're really just the same as us, trying to have fun and make friends.

so THANKYOU, scholars, if any of you are reading this.

then theres the group of people i always hang out with.

hey guys, i know some of you would definitely be reading this, and i PROMISE to write you a proper note that you can expect during FAM!

thankyou for all the times we spent camhoring together, gossiping about things, being tablemates, heart-to-heart talks, the laughter, tears and joy. without all of you, life would have been such a BORE.

arthi- for being oh-so-charismatic
brintha- for being my bestest gossip pal :D
amanda- for being there to listen to me and share your troubles with me so i could help!
chloe- for being there to bitch with me and always hearing me out
jolene- for being supportive of me and everything else (including nonsense!)
lava- for being dirty, disgusting and my fantastic tablemate/ scapegoat with ms tk wong xD
nageis- for being an awesome funny pal and i still cant believe you were a bully in primary school!
shroobs- for being a superbly superb tablemate and always laughing/ talking with me at the back of class! and the sari we slept under!
dayna- for being your vegetable freak and going all scream-y with me
janny- for an awesome tablemate and annoying me till no end and the secret stuff we do at the back!

so my bestest friends,

once again, thankyou. thankyou arthi, brintha, amanda, chloe, jo, lava, nagib, shroobs, dayna and janny.

thankyou for everything you've done for me and everything else.

i'll miss you guys always.

and to the rest of 403, im sorry we never got a chance to bond much, but i do have a memorable moment with most people.

i guess we should have done more in sec3 eh?

but im glad sec4 went the way it did, because we definitely got ALOT closer and became ALOT more bonded.

is this goodbye?

i hope not.


I guess it's gonna have to hurt,
I guess I'm gonna have to cry,
And let go of some things I've loved,
To get to the other side,
I guess it's gonna break me down,
Like falling when you try to fly,
It's sad, but sometimes moving on with the rest of your life,
Starts with goodbye.

I know there's a blue horizon,
Somewhere up ahead, just waiting for me,
Getting there means leaving things behind,
Sometimes life's so bitter sweet.

- Starts With Goodbye by Carrie Underwood